Are You Really Fine?
Self-Darkness. A Poem.
On the brightest of Sunny Days, we can become obscure with darkness, cautious of every step we take thinking, is this it? Is this the moment where I’m at my darkest.
Losing balance, you feel yourself falling. You think to hit the ground, yes hitting the ground that would be so cathartic.
Your mind is aware of what is happening but it’s like your words have no sound, your heart barely skips a beat at the thought of hitting the ground.
You surrender to gravity because giving in feels so good, no more sleepless nights, isolated days, and most importantly being misunderstood.
Knowing that you are strong conflicts with feeling like you are weak, it’s a never-ending cycle of highs and lows as you watch the light retreat.
What is wrong with me you wonder over and over again, do I even know why there is so much darkness or even who I am?
There is an everyday struggle to know who you are and a longing to be free, hoping for just a glimmer of light and maybe just maybe you will see.
A very real reality is to know that behind every wall darkness lurks, an even more scary reality is to know that the act of denial makes it worse.
No matter how much you convince yourself that this state is a disease, acknowledging and accepting it is the only way to put your mind at ease.
Dualism of everything exists in us all, you must learn to use your light in the dark when you feel yourself begin to stumble and fall.
We may have lived it or heard of it too many times, the kind of tragedy, heartache, and pain depression leaves behind.
My sweets if you do not see it just accept that the light is there, use it to guide yourself out of the darkness and back on the road to self-care.
Where there is dark, there is light, where there is belief, there is balance, where there is hope, there is healing, where there is wholeness there is TRUE SELF. –E. Lynn
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